Being me is exhausting.

All this time, I've been thinking of how lucky I am since I was born tho' I din get everything I wanted, thats for sure. Hehe. And I live my life leisurely.. 
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Sometimes I'm afraid to ask Allah to give me this and that. I don't know if I deserve to pray for something good, coz I've always been a lucky girl for the past 22 years. But now, I really caught up with this thing, and of course, it's tiring me out. I can't deal with this any more. I just can't. I want to end it up quickly, I can't bear with it any longer. 
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I want it so badly..... But I'm too ashamed to ask Allah to give it to me, because He already gave me too many things. Ohh.. Ohhh.. -_-

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